All I wanted for Christmas was you........

I didn't get it.

maybe next year.............

Merry Christmas anyways

There were just too many 
Times people have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you 
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that I've held on 
When I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many things that you say about me when I’m not around
You think having the upper hand 
Means you gotta keep putting me down
But I've had too many stand-offs with you
It's about as much as I can stand
So I’ll wait until the upper hand is mine

One minute your on top
The next your not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute your on top
The next your not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won
And then it's all gone

So many people like me that put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned of what you think
To just say what we feel inside
So many people like me walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want is to feel like I'm not stepped on
There are so many things you say that make me feel 
You've cross the line
What goes up will surely fall, and I'm counting down the time
Cause I've had so many stand-offs with you
Its about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting until the upper hand is mine

One minute your on top
The next your not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute your on top
The next your not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won

And then it's all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

I know I'll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us but you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating up above us all
But what goes up is got to fall

One minute your on top
The next your not, watch it drop
Making your heart stop
Just before you hit the floor
One minute your on top
The next your not, missed your shot
Making your heart stop
You think you've won

And then it's all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
And then it’s all gone
Now it’s all gone

So I am one thankful puppy for today! You wanna know why?
because 21 years ago an angel was born. 
A beautiful, amazing, sweet, kind and loving angel!
One that has blessed my life in so many ways just by being in it.
Who is this amazing person you must ask, well, I'm glad you did!
This amazing person is my KRISTIAN MUEGEL!
Oh how I love her. 
Today is her 21st year! 
I wish I could be there with her to help her celebrate it, but 'I'm stuck on this
stupid ^{God forsaken island}....w/o her! 

I miss you sweet Kristian!
Happy 21st birthday
_{I miss you}
^{I wish I were there with you}
I love you
I hope I get to talk to you soon!

42-39!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOOOOO BUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and so we remain the best damn team in the land!!!!

and undefeated

and I love the Bucks
and Im jealous Kristian that you got to be there and rush the feild
and I love the Bucks
and you Kristian
and I love the Bucks

And Michigan STILLLLL sucks!!!!
and MUCK FISHIGAN
and Michigan will always SUCK!!!!

I Guess I should update Y'all on whats going on in Guam. 

The island is beautiful.
The locals are very welcoming,
they open up their door to anyone!

I love being here with Mas
and seeing her everyday
and spending every chance I get with her.

I am slowly getting used to working in the Emergency Room
Slowly getting used to the 12 hour night shifts
Slowly getting used to dealing with people and the crap they call an "Emergency"

It is taking so long to get used to not being at home!
It is taking so long to get used to the weather not changing
and the trees 
and the clothes
and not "winterizing" my car.

I miss Ohio SOOOO badly.
I miss Buckeye Country
I miss Buckeye fans, games, memorabilia

Thanks to Nick I got my releif though
he was AMAZING and sent me an
"Ohio State Buckeye Jones soda set"
It was wonderful!!!

I miss the leaves changing colors
the changing of wardrobes
the seasons!

But it really is beautiful here
The ocean is SOOOO blue
The landscaping is breathtaking
and man-oh-boy can the locals cook here!

There is a thing called Chomorro Village
(Chomorros are the locals)
and all it is is a HUGE BBQ!
MMMM Sooo good, but makin me a fattie!

I'll be home soon enough
I wish I could come home for Christmas, 
maybe next year.

 I was going to put pictures of Guam up now,
but apparently if I uploaded them, I would have to pay to do it.....
So frankly, I just dont care that much
check out my face book if you wanna know....

I guess thats all I really wanted to say,
I'll put more up later
Till then................

I miss you!!!!